A dreadful thought...

This morning was a busy one.

After sleeping too late, i rallied up the troops (Lucky and Sampson) for a quick walk around the block. After suddenly realizing that i had forgotten to pick up the standard dog meds yesterday, i rushed them back in the door and headed to the vet clinic. When i arrived there were dozens of kittens up for adoption in the reception area so i poked around and played while I waited my turn in line. There was an older dog there that looked very ill accompanying a heartbroken owner. I tried my best not to think too much about the day when i might lose my Lucky.

Lucky's birthday is July 4th (we sorta made that up). She joined us in November of 2005 and she is our version of a first child. She is my first real pet as an adult (with the exception of numerous cows, pigs, horses, cats, and stray dogs from my youth). I love her so much the thought of losing her made me cry as i left the vet and all the way home. Since we got Sampson back in January, Lucky has changed so much. She seems so much older then she did almost two years ago. She still has the softest puppy fur imaginable but she is definately getting older - now a estimated 5 years old. Sometimes i wonder if she loves us as much as we love her. Sometimes i wonder if we make her happy or if she thinks to herself "what the hell is wrong with these people?" Am I crazy?

My husband and I have delayed having children for all the right reasons. We are both still students, so far away from family, and just plain not ready to give up life as we know it now for a little squalling ball of life. Dogs will suffice for now, but I sometimes wonder, if i am such a worrier dog owner- can you imagine what kind of worrier parent I will be? Its scary to think about.

On another note, i had to go to the mall to look for some make up and strolled through the handbag section of Dillards. Got a sweet deal on a beautiful leather bag from SAK. Originally priced at $149 I nabbed it for $25. I know I know, give it up on the purses already... I couldn't pass it up and because i am trying to follow the rule of "when something comes in something must go out" i went through my entire bag collection and put 15 bags in the give away pile. You might see a few on Ebay.